37.

AHHHHH! My tattoo appointment is tomorrow :) I'm excited.

Monday- got home from pa

Tuesday- worked at foodtown, my first day.

Wednesday-worked at edible, then foodtown till 7. then I picked up ray.

Thursday-brought ray home, delivered at ediblesss, worked at foodtown till 9, then picked up ray.

Friday- dropped off ray, worked at edibles, cashed my check(which was missing hours) went to see kat at her mommas house. then jill came over, and we went to martina's house.we were gonna goto the city but it started to rain. she wasn't allowed out so we went to apple bee's, then brought her desert. then we headed for home. stopped at walmart and i got some dress thang. then i went tanning with jill. stopped home. showered. picked up her friend jess and brought her to a bar. then we went to applebee's with chris. then we went to 7-11. and then back to my house.

and i seriously just woke up.

this week has been really really really REALLY good. and I've been extra happy.

I don't know if I'm going to the show tonight(have heart, bracewar) but I guess I'll figure that out later.

I'm going to work now, at foodtown. 230-630

and tomorrow = philly! ahh!! :)

36.

So, I got home pretty quick last night, no traffic..it was awesome. and so easy. which makes me wonder why Bean & Sky had such a hard time getting here because it's the easiest thing in the world.

Good news in tha weRLd today...

my parents are fixing my car for me!! :D

it's going to the shop now, unless they already took it there.I'm so stoked to have my own car back. I actually kind of miss it. but it's gonna feel weird having no power in what i'm driving anymore. and I'm definitely going to miss driving my mom's truck everywhere.

2005 nissan frontier nismo ed. > 2002 mazda protege 5 (wagon) ANY DAY

I start at FT today! At 3. I'm excited. my back still hurts.

I think I'm gonna eat breakfast and read some more of my book.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR CANCUN!!

35.

So, I've been a third wheel all weekend.

such a cool feeling dude

I really like it.. a lot.

Ugh. anyway. I'm laying here on Skylar's floor, excited solely because Martina & I's trip to cancun was just booked. I'm sooooooo excited to just get outta new jerz and go to cancun. I can't wait for the SUN and the BEACH.

I start at Food Town on Tuesday, 3-7. I am honestly excited to start there.

I'm gonna love the two paychecks a week.

Especially since I have a problem with spending, I can spend one pay check and put the other in the bank.

hahahaha. just kidding. I will put them both in the bank. I am giving myself allowance though. for things such as: one clothing item a week. but I need things for cancun so I probably will be getting things like, a bathing suit, towel, shorts, stuff like that.

We went to this crazy place today. It had a million trampolines and it was SO fun. (minus being the fifth wheel)

We also went to Body Mods and I met Chris, and he sized my tattoo for me. I'm so excited, it's only a week away. :D

Tomorrow my meeting is at 1:00, I forgot my parking pass at home. So I'm either going to park at a guest spot or go inside and get another parking pass.

Meh, well I guess I'm gonna try and sleep.

Hopefully I'll have dreams of laying on the beach.

Carrotz.

34.

HI!

Posting from Skylar's room.

33.

Lets see. so I handed in my papers at food town earlier and I start on Tuesday at 3. pretty cool.

My boss said they normally start people at minimum wage but since I have experience he will start me out at more. :D  

I didn't get a massage at the mall because the mall I went to didn't have the massage thingy there.

I went to Wood Bridge mall with Solveig, and we were there for a good part of the day. Pretty fun, it was good catching up. Then we got bubble tea. and pizza. it was my first time having bubble tea and it was the weirdest thing ever! But I like it a lot, and I'm glad I tried it. soooo weird tho.

Now I'm just sitting here, killing time before Ray comes over.? I might read some of my book.

I AM determined to get a massage asap.

32.

Okay. well. I got the job. I got a new phone and a new number. I hate my new phone, only because NOTHING will EVER compare to my iPhone, and the camera absolutely SUCKS. my brother sent me a couple links so I can unlock my iPhone.. I might try and do it, but idk.

Work has been so slow, I went in yesterday and left by 930. shit stinks, but it is pretty cool that I got another job. I wont have as much free time to sit here doing nothing, i'll be working a majority of the time. 

As soon as I get my paycheck, I'm going to the mall and getting a massage. I've been saying this for days now but I really mean it. Blah. My mom just made me a caesar salad. So I'm gonna go eat it.

31.

Haven't posted in quite some time due to working so much. I'm sick at the moment, coughing, aching, stuffy, sore throat, dry and congested cough, shit sucks.

ugh. I don't even know what to say. I just wanna get betterrrrrrrr.

and my phone got shut off. but I think I might sell my iPhone and go on my parent's plan because once i'm in college I won't be able to afford the monthly bill anyway.

bye.

30.

I am so ready for summer, and so fed up with work. I can't wait till the holiday is over. I have an interview at Food Town in Atlantic Highlands on Tuesday. I'm not quitting edible arrangements, I just want another job. 

Ughhh.  my head always hurts lately.

I'm tired 24/7

I don't remember if I wrote in my last entry or not, but I dyed my hair pretty dark and I like it.

and I have a month of tanning. and my tattoo appointment is now on Sunday, March 1st.

I'm debating whether or not to go tanning or what tonight. ahh.

29.

Blah. Yesterday was the first day I delivered all the orders by myself. It was fine and easy. I didn't get any tips though. this one lady in a trailer park told me that I must be crazy for what I'm wearing... I don't think she got out much because it was GORGEOUS outside yesterday.

Well I worked from about 10-5ish and then I went to the bank, and went home. I got on the train and went to the rangers game. Martina met up with my dad & I there. I lol'd because my dad texted me earlier in the day to bring him pants because he ripped his..hahahaha poor guy. so yeah, I had to bring him pants to change into. The game was okay, but the Rangers lost. :(. They've been doing so shitty lately. and I nearly lost my voice as I was leaving. My dad didn't drive to the game so after the game we had to take the train to Secaucus and then get a taxi to his job. Over all it was a fun game. My dad & I had a serious talk on the way home, and I liked it. I never really get to talk to my dad like that because I'm/he's never home and stuff. So yeah, it was good.

I might have to switch back to verizon because I can't really afford my iPhone bill, especially when I leave for college in August, and it's not fair for my grandpa to be paying for it. so yeah. I might just get like an EN-V 2 or whatever, I don't know.

I've come to realize being alone isn't so bad, but I will be lonely in no time. the talk with my dad last night really made me realize a LOT of things, which is good, but at the same time I'm just bummed about it. I don't let any people into my life/heart because I got so hurt last year, and I guess I'm just not letting anyone in because I don't want to get hurt again, I can't believe I'd rather sit around and pass up any opportunity just because I don't want to get hurt. Hurt happens, and eventually everything will work it out for it's self so I don't know why I think about this stuff so much. I guess when the right person comes along, I will be ready/willing to try liking them, or try having a relationship.. I don't know, I just think every guy is the same so it is hard for me. I gotta get out of that mind frame.

anyway, I'm off work today. tomorrow I work at 8. thurs at 12. friday at 8, saturday at 8. sunday at 8. we are going to be so busy this weekend at work, i'm kind of excited because I need hours/ want money! AHH.

My tattoo appt is coming up so quickly and I can't wait till the actual day. and I'm also pretty excited to visit school on the 23rd, but I have no reason to be. I guess because I'm picking my classes & junk, IDK.

Okay, I'm done.

28.

weekend update, I guess.

on Thursday after work, I went up to Marissa's college to hangout. I also got my n64 from Mike's house really quick.

We went to this dance @ Marissa's school, called a rathskeller. shit was WEIRD. I'm not really a clubhead/I can't dance so I was trying to make the best of it, but too much dirty stuff was going on. and it's an all girls school. me and marissa left the rathskeller early and went back to her room. played on the computer and then went to sleep.

Woke up on Friday, Marissa went to class. She got out & I drove her home, and I went straight to work. Got out of work early. :|

I've been with Jill all weekend and it's been great.

nothing too exciting happened.

I got a month of tanning, and I'm loving it. on a diet, and gonna start working out.

I want to sell some stuff of mineeeeeee.

27.

No work today..it felt nice waking up late for a change. Snow ruins my life. At least the roads are clear though. I fell asleep around 2, because I was sitting here with nothing to do. I woke up at 8 because I had a dream that I was hanging out with Kristie and I had to pee but it somehow just came out and got all over us. GROSSEST THING. So yeah, at 8am the road was COVERED and now I just woke up and it's like..sunny and there's absolutely no snow on the road. cool. But we did get a few inches. I hate snow. a LOT

Lalalala, so today idk what my plans are, other than selling my iPod to Karebear and going to the doctors. I'm in a cleaning mood, but I have nothing to clean. :|

As for work & stuff, I'm off every Tuesday, and every other Saturday. I work Monday 10-whenever, Wednesday 8-?, Thursday 12-4, Friday 12-4, and Saturday 8-?(if i'm working).

This month is looking pretty good, I guess you could say. I'm working Valentines day 8-5. We're probably going to be really really busy, since we have a LOT of orders in already. I'm going to count how many strawberries I dip in chocolate and see if it's more than what I dipped for christmas.(650 something) I reallllyyy wanted to see the Rent tour because it's touring over here, but I have no one to go with me. So I'm not gonna go. When my dad gets home from Texas, I'm gonna order Ray this shaver. Lifes so boring when he's on tour, I can't wait till he gets home. Every night all I do is video chat with Manny. which I love because I miss him, but I hate not hanging out with people. oh well.

So, Feb like..23 I have an advisement session at school to pick my classes. before I know it I will be moved in and getting ready to go to those classes. that stuffs so scary to me. but I am ready :)

and then Feb 28 is the tattoo appointment, and then I guess I'll be coming home to see the mongos/have heart show that night. I hate telling people that I'm getting a tattoo and stuff but this is my journal and I'm telling it here. haha. I don't like when people are like OMG YOU GOT ONE LET ME SEEEEEEEEEEEE. whatevaaa. okay.

I'm gonna go find some honey nut cheerios. I hope we have them. byeee.

26.

So I didn't drive the delivery van today, the dudes who insure our van/drivers split with the company and they have to find another insurance company. Mondays are my delivery days, and then I found out that I'm going to only be working every other day and I'm off every Tuesday. and THEN I found out, that I'm only either working morning till whenever, or 12-5 during the weekend. I can't decide, and I get first pick. Shit sucks. it's because I'm moving to PA in August for school. But, I guess maybe I'm going to try and get a job in the morning till 12ish. maybe in an dental office or something.

ugh.

I downloaded a shit load of music today. I'm selling my iPod to Karebear on Wednesday. I never use my iPod anyways. 

I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday, finally. Checking out all my blood tests and all that jazz to see what's wrong with me, and why my diabetic pills were making me gain weight, I guess. and I have to get the dreaded hpv shot. I hate shots, I hate getting my blood taken, but tattoos I can handle. What sucks the most is poking my finger to take my blood sugar.

I reeeeeeeeallly want a malti poo. they're sooooooo cute!!

I just baked brownies and I'm gonna go watch my shows. House, Gossip Girl and then One Tree Hill.