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Blah. Yesterday was the first day I delivered all the orders by myself. It was fine and easy. I didn't get any tips though. this one lady in a trailer park told me that I must be crazy for what I'm wearing... I don't think she got out much because it was GORGEOUS outside yesterday.

Well I worked from about 10-5ish and then I went to the bank, and went home. I got on the train and went to the rangers game. Martina met up with my dad & I there. I lol'd because my dad texted me earlier in the day to bring him pants because he ripped his..hahahaha poor guy. so yeah, I had to bring him pants to change into. The game was okay, but the Rangers lost. :(. They've been doing so shitty lately. and I nearly lost my voice as I was leaving. My dad didn't drive to the game so after the game we had to take the train to Secaucus and then get a taxi to his job. Over all it was a fun game. My dad & I had a serious talk on the way home, and I liked it. I never really get to talk to my dad like that because I'm/he's never home and stuff. So yeah, it was good.

I might have to switch back to verizon because I can't really afford my iPhone bill, especially when I leave for college in August, and it's not fair for my grandpa to be paying for it. so yeah. I might just get like an EN-V 2 or whatever, I don't know.

I've come to realize being alone isn't so bad, but I will be lonely in no time. the talk with my dad last night really made me realize a LOT of things, which is good, but at the same time I'm just bummed about it. I don't let any people into my life/heart because I got so hurt last year, and I guess I'm just not letting anyone in because I don't want to get hurt again, I can't believe I'd rather sit around and pass up any opportunity just because I don't want to get hurt. Hurt happens, and eventually everything will work it out for it's self so I don't know why I think about this stuff so much. I guess when the right person comes along, I will be ready/willing to try liking them, or try having a relationship.. I don't know, I just think every guy is the same so it is hard for me. I gotta get out of that mind frame.

anyway, I'm off work today. tomorrow I work at 8. thurs at 12. friday at 8, saturday at 8. sunday at 8. we are going to be so busy this weekend at work, i'm kind of excited because I need hours/ want money! AHH.

My tattoo appt is coming up so quickly and I can't wait till the actual day. and I'm also pretty excited to visit school on the 23rd, but I have no reason to be. I guess because I'm picking my classes & junk, IDK.

Okay, I'm done.