46.

haaaaaaaaaaaa.

45.

In a haze, a stormy haze

I'll be 'round, I'll be loving you always, always

Here I am and I'll take my time.

Here I am and I'll wait in line always, always.

44.

I should be writing in here. but I'm just happy Manny is back here for a little bit.

Last night was a lot of fun.

43.

I should be writing in here. but I'm just happy Manny is back here for a little bit.

Last night was a lot of fun.

42.

Don't go looking for me there.

I left so long ago.

You had your chance to love me.

Now, I don't know.

Let's just say, things are slowly changing and I don't like it.

I wish I could just let some people know how I feel, but then I'd risk ruining things. I don't let people into my heart or head, and I hide my feelings so well... Sometimes it really bothers me. Kat and Martina can ALWAYS tell what's wrong, and they know everything.. EVERYTHING about me. I don't know. I have this turning feeling in my stomach and I can't stand it any longer. I need to get my mind off things and onto new things. or just nothing at all.

I started downloading all old cd's that I used to listen to in middle school and the beginning of high school. shit's wild, and bringing back so many memories.

I want to do something new and exciting, but it's hard when I have work all the time.

I can't wait till six flags opens, i want to bungee jump so bad.

Today I'm working 12-4 but after that I am gonna go out shopping with my sister in law, Chrystal. It will be a gooooood time.

and tomorrow, after I work 12-4, I will be heading up to Martina's house, and we're most likely gonna hang out with Nick and Sam. I'm excited for that. If we don't maybe we'll go to the city or something. who knows.

41.

I hate having a fucking heart.

I can't wait to get out of here.

40.

Fuck.

39.

Yup I like life..... NOT.

uuuuuuuuuuuggghhhh.

my hours for this week.

Sunday 4-9

Monday  

Edible: 9-?

Food Town: 5-10

Tuesday

Food Town: 11:30 - 6:30

Wednesday

Edible: 8-?

Food Town: 4-9

Thursday

Edible: 12-4

Friday

Edible: 12-4

Saturday

Edible: 8-?

Food Town: 3-730

Tired.Tired.Tired.

I'm tired of being single, I think.

But I don't want a relationship. 

Actually, I don't know what I want.

I want something exciting to happen.

I can't wait for my vacation to Cancun with Martina.

Life is sooooo boring.

help me. ugh. 

38.

I haven't been posting and it's because I'm so busy with two jobs.

Always tired, but I can't help that.

Having terrible dreams.

I'm worried about school.

um,

Yesterday was cool. I worked from 8-12 at edibles and then 4-9 at foodtown.

I picked up Ray and we went to Emia's house (I can't really spell his name) Mij, Kevin and Greg were there. Then Janise came.

We watched them play COD which I have no idea how it works, but whatever. and then Emia was going to bed so Ray, Me, Mij, Kevin and Janise went to the diner.

I was in a weird mood because I was so tired I guess. I duno.

Me and Ray came back to my house and fell asleep.

Today we just hung out all day since I didn't go to work.

then I brought him home, came here and napped. and was seriously so out of it. I don't get it.

Then I called Skylar when  I was sleeping. turns out that he was supposed to call me to let me know that Marissa was coming over because her phone is retarded and she lost her contacts.

So fucking weird. I have no idea what made me call him.

and now I'm up, I have work at 12, but I don't want to go to bed because I don't want to have bad dreams. :/

OH I FORGOT TO SAY MY TATTOO CAME OUT LOVELY :) I LOVE IT SO MUCH

I just added pictures up top. they're the best I have really.