42.

Don't go looking for me there.

I left so long ago.

You had your chance to love me.

Now, I don't know.

Let's just say, things are slowly changing and I don't like it.

I wish I could just let some people know how I feel, but then I'd risk ruining things. I don't let people into my heart or head, and I hide my feelings so well... Sometimes it really bothers me. Kat and Martina can ALWAYS tell what's wrong, and they know everything.. EVERYTHING about me. I don't know. I have this turning feeling in my stomach and I can't stand it any longer. I need to get my mind off things and onto new things. or just nothing at all.

I started downloading all old cd's that I used to listen to in middle school and the beginning of high school. shit's wild, and bringing back so many memories.

I want to do something new and exciting, but it's hard when I have work all the time.

I can't wait till six flags opens, i want to bungee jump so bad.

Today I'm working 12-4 but after that I am gonna go out shopping with my sister in law, Chrystal. It will be a gooooood time.

and tomorrow, after I work 12-4, I will be heading up to Martina's house, and we're most likely gonna hang out with Nick and Sam. I'm excited for that. If we don't maybe we'll go to the city or something. who knows.