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here's a post from my journal from the new year of 2007.

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[21 Jan 2007|11:00pm]

[ mood |  complacent ] I need to grow up & stop being a baby, and stop pushing every boy I come in contact with, away. and I need to stop being rude to people for no reason. and I need to stop pushing friends away.  I love the girls I work with, and I love hanging out with them. I just figured out my new years resolution : stop being afraid of every good thing that might come into my life, and stop pushing things away that are good for me.

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that never happened. I still do this. I won't hang out with new people. I'm a scaredy cat of everything that could be good in my life. I'm skeptical of every person I meet. ESPECIALLY guys. I don't trust ANYONE, except my family, and Kat & Marissa.

WHY?